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Body Image

I applaud Sophia in her total honesty ! the difficulties she faced tackling her body image issues.

So after reading the Lovely Tattooedtea lady’s blog post, it inspired me to write from my angle of life

The Beginning of Body Issues

This being the subject I should start from the beginning,

little old me I wasn’t your average child

I was boisterous and what didn’t help as I was one-year-old

people used to say to my mum,“why is she in a buggy? she is far too old”

when they were told I was only one!

there shocked, I wasn’t a big child I was tall,

I was the tall skinny long-haired, goofy teeth kid.

that people found easy to tease.

puberty hit and I was 8-9 a friend pointed out I had underarm hair.

upset I went home crying and was advised to shave it.

You would think to hit puberty at a young age would mean fast development

The usual set of boobs and matured but no!

My boobs stayed the same!

I was 17-18 size 34AA and slim. Due to an eating disorder.

I starved myself

when I did eat, it would be quick crap chocolate, fizz, and then I would feel guilty and exercising.

I had also of issues growing up with my body,

there was one time I recall going clothes shopping with my mum, and now I know what she meant!

Tall Skinny and Shapeless

I was tall skinny no boobs I was shapeless.

my mum would get so angry at the shops.

I assumed it was my fault on why she was always saying “why does nothing look right on you”

This tainted my enjoyment even till now when I am on an off day I can still hear this said in my mind.

I was bullied not in primary aged 5, but all the way through my teen’s.

Until I hit 16-17!

I was accepted!

I loved college, The fact I was at college and working had a BF, things were great except my body issues.

He had to deal with me being unhappy with my mum and sister.

So I decided I was going to save up my money and buy myself some boobs.

My mum assumed that I was going to go way too big like Jordan / Katie Price!

but that is and never will be what I want to look like.

I wanted to look like a woman.

breast enhancement pills, A Hoover because of the Bravo bra instead of surgery, in the end.

I went and had it done I was so thrilled with the results!

also got liposuction, in several areas

back
abdominal
inner and outer thighs

looking back on it now it was worthless getting done,

I would kill to be the size I was then now.

still battling with my daemons.

not long after I had my breasts done I fell pregnant with my little lady KK who is now 7.

Due to the weight gain and loss, my implants started to ripple and hurt and look funny.

So I had to pay for more,

Thinking about it now I wish I had gone a tiny bit bigger.

Desperate Times

I have been through a lot of hurts and upset.

Majority caused by others.

Then lead to self-harming, drinking, smoking and other stuff

I’m not proud of it but we live, and we learn one way or another.

things become very clear and If I knew then what I know now I wouldn’t have done it!

If I was fortunate enough to hitch a ride with Matt Smith,

I’d love to revisit to study my life and pinpoint where things started to go wrong and why.

I’m still fighting with my body issues! and still not happy with myself.I am going to Blog and Vlog on this topic with my process. thought it was worth to note the other end of the spectrum. being called names and things happen in all age shapes and sizes. Unfortunately, if you don’t fit in with the click.

you tend never to feel or think you’re good enough for anyone leaving your confidence at an all-time low.

To read my other post on Microdermabrasion

Anyway, sending big hugs to Sophia

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Body Image

The Beginning of Body Issues

Tall Skinny and Shapeless

I wanted to look like a woman.

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